Keep Breathing.

Yesterday I had an awful dream. I went to bed frustrated, uncomfortable and in pain, and was in the same state in my dreams. I remember being flustered and frustrated as I tried to get somewhere because I promised someone I'd be there. As I asked people for help, everyone left me high and dry to fend by myself. I finally, after struggling for what felt like hours in my dream, got to the place I needed to go, only to find that everyone who I asked for help to get to this certain place were all there. I was so frustrated, but they seemed mad at me. Now as I write this, I realize this is a common feeling I have throughout my week. People letting me down and then I find out they just had bad planning skills, or were inconsiderate of anyone's feelings but their own and I feel like I have no right to be angry. But then,

The dream switches over to a house I don't know. I'm with people I know, but I can't make out their faces, I don't recognize them. All of a sudden, a man with a scruffy beard and a red t-shirt with a bunch of other people bring out guns and tell us to get into this little room. So there we are, all these people I know, but don't know, waiting to die. We knew we were going to die. We all decided we would stick it out together, but I turn my back for a second and the big group turns from 10 or so people to 3. One boy and one girl and me. All of a sudden the guy with the gun says he's coming in. We know we're about to die. I have this unexplainable feeling of horror and sickness. But I'm not freaking out. I'm almost relieved. It's time. It's okay, I'm ready. I think to myself. No more let downs, no more struggles and moments to fall short. But the guy with the gun never does come in, so the boy and the girl and I walk out, to see what's happened, and we find our killer sitting on the couch eating chips and watching t.v. where he then says "I was just kidding". Even death let me down.

All we can do is keep breathing.

Messages in a cap

"I wonder if I should give my mum a call" I wondered to myself as I walked home. I passed by a Jones bottle cap that looked as if it had a rough go of life. It was squished and dirty. I picked it up, turned it over to find it full of dirt. I stuck my white mitten in and wiped a little circle to see what it said.



Why can't a lot of answers in life be this obvious.

A Run of Surprises

We turn the corner, going the long way home. He walks happily beside me as I think how awful the sidewalks are. With water skimming over top the ice just to make it that more lethal. So much for our run. But as I look up I see the long stretch home is clear. Maybe a little wet, but we're already soaked, no big deal. We start running, both of us exhausted before we even begin. He runs by my side. I think to myself how odd that really is. Usually he is way ahead of me pulling me along. But now, a few years later, I'm the one pulling him at times. I ask him if he's feeling tired. No answer. Which is how it usually is with him. But I don't mind. As his energy level sinks to a 5 on the 10 spectrum I tell him how good he's doing and how proud I am of him. His pace quickens a little. My voice retreats, and so does his speed. I find this interesting. I continue to encourage him. He quickens. I tell him we're almost there, excitement in my voice, he begins running harder, to a point where he begins to pull me so I don't get left behind. I laugh and we stop running. I give him a love slap telling him he's done wonderfully.



I begin thinking. If my words of encouragement and my happy tone can encourage my dog out of his old age, to run harder, to run faster, just because I'm telling him he's a good dog, how much more do words of encouragement and love mean to those who understand their meaning?